no touching of work at all this weekend. :) boy, am i glad.

today's message was really impactful. was moved by what Pastor Mike said, about how if we could just 1/20 of 1% of our income each mth, we would be able to reach out to the 2 billion ppl who have not heard Christ's name even once. the irony of things is that ppl often think that if they give, they will have less in return. but God promises much much more in return, that we may give even more to the church of Jesus Christ. and its not just spiritual blessings, but financial as well. and yes, the health and wealth gospel thing. its so true, that certain things are biblical about it, but the error lies in the part where the wealth gathered be used for your own lust, and material gains. well, i guess its truly a blessing to give, rather than to receive. give without remembering, take without forgetting. may we give because He first gave. to give faithfuly, sacrificially, cheerfully, proportionately and expectantly.

talked to ian about the theology stuff as mentioned below and managed to clarify things. tk God.
shall explain that soon as well (together with the long overdue account of my trip :P)


well well...i was in the car. geddit? haha :) dont worry.









so every moment, we shared together
is even better than the moment before
and if everyday was, as good as today was,
then i can't wait til tomorrow comes.

heh nice song :)

Children's Camp Theme Song 2009

Verse 1:
On the cross, You died for all to see.
You came to earth to save me.
I was lost, but now I am found.
For You died and rose again to set me free.

Chorus:
Help me to,
Love You with my heart, my soul, my mind, my strength.
For You're worthy to be loved,
for You're worthy to be praised.
Help me to,
Live for You all of my days.
In Jesus name, we pray, Amen

Verse 2:
The eyes of the Lord are searching to and fro
He is looking for You, His child, do you know?
He sees that heart that longs for Him
And He works in You, to help You grow.

Verse 3:
Lord, let me learn how to serve
To help my brothers and sisters I love
Even though I am young
You’ll give me strength, and I will sing this song.

editing in progress
need uncle ivan and ian to vet
but i do need honest feedback from whoever who reads this!
please feel free to comment, and if u wanna hear the tune, please let me know too.
i need all the various opinions :) tks

thought everything would be over tmr
looks like i was wrong
more to do, more to edit
its definitely next wk
could be tues, wed, or even fri, who knows
its really too long drawn
physically drained nearly everyday
really cant wait for next wk to be over
more time with my family, my grandma
and to plan and focus on life ahead

all the same, i thank God for this job
God has broken me, picked me and taught me life lessons through this
i remember saying in a post earlier this year about waiting and praying
well, i believe its about perserverance as well,
and without which i wouldnt have pushed through 5+ mths
He gave me strength to see me through each day.

and now its even more waiting and praying.
i think at the end of the year i will look back and be in awe and amazement at God's hands in everything.


but then when i bow to You, the challenges You guide me through, Your promises are ever new, I claim them for today.
just so unworthy to receive His blessings, yet He still gave

Some have taught that the way to holiness is to "let go and let God." But that is not biblical. In the first place, we don't need to "let God", for God is sovereign and does not need to wait for us to let go before he can work. And we should not "let go", for God commands us to fight in the spiritual battle. (extracted from a book)

Hmm. Did not really see letting go and letting God in this light. I guess for me, letting go, means to give up our worldliness, to deny ourselves, and letting God take control, to let God rule and reign in my life. But now, a different viewpoint stating that letting go and letting God is not biblical.

I (the author of the same book as above) believe that demoninationalism is an offense against God and that is has weakened the church's witness. The rise of denominations is caused by sin, either sin of those who left the original church or sin of those who forced them to leave, or most likely both.

People used to ask me why were there denominations among the churches. So maybe this is a possible answer to the question? Interesting stuff.

one word. EPIC.
thanks for being open.
God, please help me to be that good testimony wherever and whatever.
glad that i settled something this morning. thank God.

now back to my work, a good way of keeping me busy.



sudden realisation that blogs are so public. haiz

im glad i did complete it earlier this morning :) even though i have to re-edit again :P
surprisingly not that tired now too...thank God for strength
well, my friend is back after i think about a month long break. YAY! miss her!

and you didnt have to, but thanks much. it helped :)

fri? i doubt so...
the word "REDO" reverberates
and everytime my phone rings, it just means more
say bye to sleep for a bit...

edit: hmm...im not supposed to stay up past bedtime. means i gotta do it tmr morning. who can give me a wake up call at 6? or 5 plus? ah, an unlikely possibility. oh wells

and so im back from kk :)
the trip has been a good break from work... ok maybe not work per se cos the conference was part of work, but perhaps from the same working environment for the last 5 mths.
tk God for the deeper bonds forged among the 3 of us. tks for all the sharing we had. hope it helped in a way :)
lots of reflections to do about the trip. soon soon...
but for now, its back to the reality of work for perhaps a week i hope? if not maybe 2...
God is so good, all the time. He keeps showing me time and time again how He can always work things out, as long as we seek in faith, knowing He will provide.
truly, how can i keep from singing Your praise...


ah...my phone bills are gonna sky rocket...what with all the communication from msia to singapore

May the Lord find us faithful

God has not given us the spirit of fear.
But has given us the strength to obey.
With power and sound mind, with love, the unfailing kind,
O be not ashamed of His way.

No man that seeketh after the things of this life,
Is a soldier who passes the test.
Be faithful, be working, be running, be serving,
Be searching His word for His best.

Living or dying, may honour be thine.
From this wretched life, Your loved and forgave.
A life that is on fire, be only our heart's desire.
Be faithful from now to the grave,

May the Lord find us faithful.
May His word be our banner held high.
May the Lord find us faithful.
Everyday though we live, though we die.

lunch break now...
honestly, work these 2 days hasnt been that great. some sort of barrier among people and things like that. somehow the environment feels rather different (colder, i guess) from a few mths back. and in a few days time, gotta head over to msia. not exactly looking forward to the trip, even though it is considered a break.

not going to let the sudden onslaught of various things get to me though. to be able to stand strong regardless of circumstance is not an easy feat. but all His blessings have seen me through thus far. and all His answered prayers have shown clearly His sovereignty. and thus, i must press on, not only for these 2 weeks, but for whatever that comes my way.

tk God for a verse from a friend just this morning to remind me from psalm 73:21-28: What is the desire of my heart, what is the strength of my life?

How Can I Keep From Singing?

tk God He is in perfect control. God is good, all the time.
no circumstances can hinder us from giving Him the praise due to His name.

now, all 4 of us are in this together. amazing yeah? God sees the heart and He answers.

how can i ever say enough, how amazing is Your love.

ah........................................... :P
did get me thinking, but oh wells
sometimes being introspective isnt a good thing :P

somehow, i really want to go edinburgh, not for the purpose of taking a trip to europe, but just to spend a couple of weeks with a group of old friends whom i havent had time to catch up with. miss you guys a lot, and the times we had together, especially during secondary school days. why cant it ever be the same now? well, have a good trip anyway yeah, even though i cant join you all. :)

was blessed by the sharing today. its amazing how God speaks to me each time something happens. was chatting with a close friend from my JC class today. we used to spend so much time together studying, chatting, doodling on each other's papers in lectures. when things werent going too well, she used to encourage me with verses. and though she's catholic, we used to do morning devotions together. but something shocked and saddened me today. she knew i got my uni course of my choice, and though she worked really hard for it, she did not. when i first approached her, she just congratulated me but did not tell me about not getting it. and so i heard from another friend about it. in a sense, i did not manage to speak to her about it until today, which i guess was quite natural, her not wanting to talk about it. she apologised for ignoring me. but somehow when i told her i heard from a friend about it, she reacted really strongly against that friend. i felt really upset for that friend, as i knew that it was my fault that i had asked about it in the first place. at that point, i did not really know how to react, but i confessed to her that it was my fault. she did not take that well either. and when i said that i would be praying for her, she told me not to, cos she did not believe there was a god. i was utterly shocked and very upset about this whole incident. but i stood firm, and just replied her that i shall still pray for i believe, and it does not matter if she didnt. thoughts about the whole incident kept replaying... but just thank God for a very relevant message today during uth. praying for the right time to talk again...

and thank God for friends always so willing to help one another. really appreciate the help provided for games :)

and so, i tried to finish. guess most of it was completed last night, but still couldnt settle a few things. well, at least i stayed awake :) its gonna be tough today though...

thanks, really :) hope you werent too tired...

His word is a constant reminder of who i should be and how i should be living.
wasnt a great day but after a short run and reflection, im good :)

When i was about 12, i read the whole series Chronicles of Narnia. Then, it was mere fiction, but i was already intrigued by the plots, the characters, the whole fantasy. And i never knew that the series had Christian themes and scripture references until quite recent.

CS Lewis is a brilliant author. Just picked up another of his Christian novels - The Great Divorce, and couldnt put it down. The book basically talks about the separation between heaven and hell, as well as salvation. Of course, its only fiction. But then again, in every chapter, there are scripture references being made, and Christian values shared. And CS Lewis discusses the themes in profound depth, despite it being a novel.

Well, looks like its time to read through Chronicles of Narnia again. Pretty much forgotten most of what i read, but after that book, am really just blown away by the way he writes.



hmm...why is it so difficult to just strike up a conversation. dont really know what is hindering. its like i know her and yet i dont. im trying, but it isnt working. even a simple how are you doesnt get me a reply. what is going on?

i just can't thank God enough, for His grace and His blessings
a year of praying and waiting
and He has once again shown Himself so strong
filled with overwhelming praise and gratitude!

who am i living for?
what am i living by?
how am i living?
why am i living the way im living now?
where am i headed?
when am i going to change the way i live?

hmm...

Will you swim the current?
Will you scale new heights?
Will you make it happen,
Will you let your dreams take flight?
Will you make the difference?
Will you seize the day?
Will you live each moment,
Will you dare to find new ways?

tired...



<3

now ive got 1 other.
and so its 2 opened doors at the moment. tk God!
mixed feelings, and a little confusion
but its ok. soon i will know...

its just very long drawn...
somehow feel sian just thinking of coming in everyday.
Lord, help me to see each day as a new learning experience.
after all, i need to be thankful for this no matter how it is now.
ah, to give my all, and not give up til june!


why do pigs fly?
because swine flu! =P

not just to serve; but to love thee with all my heart...