i don't need to run when i can hide

oh child of little faith,
when will you learn to surrender everything?




she thought she knew how to swim,
but when she was thrown into the deep end,
she started sinking...

i wish i had the guts to say...

brain death - cessation of all brain stem activity
eternal calmness?

been thinking too much lately
havent had much sleep...
ah but that's just me
perhaps it comes with maturity?





maybe nobody will ever know...i will just keep it to myself
and maybe someday it might just happen?
my greatest birthday wish...

I wish

funny how things have changed since then
someone just doesn't know it yet... and life goes on...

and...i'm praying and hoping its not the same person...

Is this how life in the working world feels like? Maybe now i do understand it better...
Work is enjoyable, but yet...
And i actually can't belive i would say this...I miss school!
Forgotten how it feels like to sit at the windy benches to mug or just to talk, laugh, eat and relax.
Oh...the naiveness of it all...

Friends

Audrey,
I doubt you will see this, but anyway, thanks for being a blessing to me in many ways. And all the best in Melbourne. Love ya and take care. Will miss ya!

2 Cor 12:7-10

And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure. For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me. And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.

The Teaching of Adversity

In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world —John 16:33

The typical view of the Christian life is that it means being delivered from all adversity. But it actually means being delivered in adversity, which is something very different. "He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. No evil shall befall you, nor shall any plague come near your dwelling . . ." ( Psalm 91:1,10 )— the place where you are at one with God.

If you are a child of God, you will certainly encounter adversities, but Jesus says you should not be surprised when they come. "In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world." He is saying, "There is nothing for you to fear." The same people who refused to talk about their adversities before they were saved often complain and worry after being born again because they have the wrong idea of what it means to live the life of a saint.

God does not give us overcoming life— He gives us life as we overcome. The strain of life is what builds our strength. If there is no strain, there will be no strength. Are you asking God to give you life, liberty, and joy? He cannot, unless you are willing to accept the strain. And once you face the strain, you will immediately get the strength. Overcome your own timidity and take the first step. Then God will give you nourishment— "To him who overcomes I will give to eat from the tree of life . . ." (Revelation 2:7 ). If you completely give of yourself physically, you become exhausted. But when you give of yourself spiritually, you get more strength. God never gives us strength for tomorrow, or for the next hour, but only for the strain of the moment. Our temptation is to face adversities from the standpoint of our own common sense. But a saint can "be of good cheer" even when seemingly defeated by adversities, because victory is absurdly impossible to everyone, except God.

Oswald Chambers

Thank God for the friend who sent this to me.

Psalm 36:9 For with thee is the fountain of life: in thy light shall we see light.

With God, we may have life more abundant and free, for He sent His son that we may live. He is the source of hope. God's love shines forth so bright, that with Him, there is light at the end of every tunner, a ray of hope at the end of every trial.



God's purposes are often hidden from us. He owes us no explanation. We owe Him our complete love and trust.

Amen to that....

its not easy
but i am trying...

beneath all the smiles...

pondering, questioning...
thrown into something unknown
confused, mixed feelings.

what does the future hold?
there is only one direction, only one.
where are You?

tired of keeping everything in
buried beneath the pile of everything else
but perhaps, thats the best way?

only You know.

"We must love the Giver and not the gifts; for to love the gifts and not the Giver is the essence of idolatry."

Is our faith a commercial one? This quote speaks volumes.







People think they know me...but they don't. And its kinda hard being myself sometimes...
I guess they see someone on the surface, but within me, i'm just different yeah?

It's strange how there is a certain perspective that girls shouldn't need to have a good career ahead of them. Many feel that girls should just get married and lead a relaxed life at home, looking after the family. I beg to differ... yet... sometimes I wish I was born a guy.

We Fall Down by Chris Tomlin

2 Cor 1:4
(God) Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God.

Amazing verse, Amazing God

This CNY i really tk God for family and friends around me. You all are great blessings to me! Blessed CNY everyone :)

been feeling rather nauseous... keep wanting to throw up while eating lunch
hope this feeling goes away soon