Sometimes we are not meant to understand everything...
Its just so wierd.
At the moment, im just confused.
Am i doing stuff my own way?
Is what im going through right?
I have this feeling that this just wont turn out in a good way.
Maybe i should just stop it as it is, get over it and move on with life?
Man...i really dont know.
Not my will but Yours be done, Lord.
I need Your guidance.

2007

As the year draws to a close, i wish to reflect upon all the significant events that have impacted my life this year. Just really want to thank God for his great blessings this year. This year has indeed been a very different school year as compared to last year. JC life i should say has been a pretty enriching, yet fulfilling experience. The school term started off on the wrong track, with many things not going well, but as it is said, God will close doors that He does not want you to open and open many more doors for you to enter. This has been so true, following all the failures at the start of the year. Firstly, He blessed me with floorball friends like Jon Muk and Marcus who brought me to church. This was the highest point of the year. From there, His blessings have flowed abundantly, and my spiritual life has changed for the better. His great and mighty works were seen clearly in my common test results, in my application for bio olympiad, in friends that i have made, etc. When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. Yes, the start of the year was a trying period, but He has pulled me through, with many miracles in so many areas in my life. I never even thought i could have made it for the first round of the bio olympiads, but i did! Obviously it was not always about school work, and God opened doors for me to serve in the worship ministry in Uth. I was fearful, inexperienced, new and everything, but a step of faith was all i needed to prove that His strength was made perfect in my weakness. Then came promotional exams. A stressful studying period made me a blessing to so many of my church friends when He inspired a song of praise, which i wrote in 20 minutes while i was studying. The song really expressed by feelings that whatever my grades would be, i would still love Him, as He loved me. He was with me the whole time, and in the end, my grades were more than satisfactory. This was the first time i composed a song, and with another bigger step of faith, i proceeded to compose songs for children's ministry. Now i know the true meaning of the verse, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. With His help, 5 songs were composed. It was during the holidays, and i was working, there were rehearsals, i had homework and i was not coping well with all that i had to do. It simply was the busiest holiday i ever had, and i really wanted to give up, but im glad i did not. Nothing is impossible with God, and children's musical was the biggest blessing to me, to the children and to all those who watched. Thank God for how He raised each and everyone in the musical to be a blessing to the unsaved. Right after the musical was camp. First church camp for me. Was a trying period... tears of frustration, and tears of joy all shed during camp. He showed me so clearly the power and importance of prayer, and how He can answer them in a matter of minutes. Thank God for His amazing work in camp. It was definitely not a coincidence of how He placed various people in various teams, and how He brought many unsaved souls to receive Him. Now, as Christmas approaches, let us remember how God sent his son Jesus to be born to save us from our sins. The true meaning of Christmas is in Jesus' birth. Oh how great are His love, His grace, His sacrifice and His blessings. To God be the glory.