Ok, so here i am typing this thing while waiting for the year 2008 to come to a close. Well, there is just too much to thank God for. Shall list it out! Ok here goes,
I thank God for:
God himself who came to die on the cross for sinners like me, who is so unworthy of His love
My family, whom i could not have gone through the year without them. You guys are the greatest blessing!
My dad, who is like a chauffer fetching me here n there
My mum, who is the ultimate chef
My brother, who is my playmate
Guiding me through A-levels and giving me the total peace in my heart
My job attachment
The Uth ministry and everyone who has made the Uth ministry possible (not going list everyone out man... too long a list)
All my friends who have seen me through ups and downs, You all are a blessing!

Father, I thank You from the bottom of my heart, for Your love, Your abundant grace, Your mercy and Your Holy Spirit that lives within me. I'm sorry for all the wrong I have done this year. Father, please cleanse me from sin, and help me come back to my first love once again. Lord, I pray this new year be a year of great revival, that I may truely live a life worthy of Your calling, to continue to love my loved ones like You have loved us. Lord, keep me strong and growing in You. I love You, Jesus! Amen.

For You I will live

Why have You chosen me
Out of millions Your child to be?
You know all the wrong I have done.
O how could You pardon me,
Forgive my iniquity,
To save me, give Jesus Your Son?

When we sang this song last friday, the words just pierced my heart. It suddenly dawned on me how i was living my life so full of this world. I just broke down. Tears rolled silently down my face... tears of sadness or happiness i didnt really know. But, I never knew such a simple message could just shatter me into pieces. Lord, sustain me. Help me to continue to live a life above the world, a life only You can give.

Blessed Christmas everyone!
May we always rem the true meaning of christmas...
Christmas musical was a blessing. Tk God!

"I cried unto the Lord with my voice,
and He heard me out of His Holy hill."

wow, im just so amazed...

I'm lost and empty. Where are you, God?

Lord, help me to live my life for You.

Here I am, Cos I believe

I was out at sea,
when Jesus called out to me.
He said, "Take my hand,
And I'll make you fishers of men."

Chorus
Here I am,
Lord, send me.
Here I am,
Ready to be.
Here I am,
Your faithful servant.
Here I am,
Cos' I believe.

Lord, help me to obey.
To reach souls lost and stray.
That they may find,
Eternal life in You.

God's love shines bright when all else fades...

Well, i guess ive never posted such things on my blog before, but yeah, i seriously thk God for my family. Everyone is born into a different family, and i am truly grateful for mine. My parents know what is best for me, and they try to provide for as much as is possible. During the A-lvl period, my parents cared even more for my wellbeing - how i was eating, whether i was prepared. They did not need me to help out around the house, but just to study hard, they were just really understanding. And most of all, they love me the way i am, just like God loves us the way we are. Sometimes, things are not meant for our own understanding, but God and parents alike do things for our good. Lord, help me to just love and honour them all the days of my life.

This is what Pat wants: a huge breakfast tmr!
Sadly there is no food for her to cook at home...

this is wad u do when ur bored!

This post is dedicated to all the people out there who asked me to update

Well, the major battle is finally over. I have perhaps gained more knowledge and all, but the most important thing learnt is the importance of prayer and true dependence on God to lead and guide all the way. Was having a small conversation with a friend what she says is so true: we are so fortunate to have a God whom we can place our trust in as we prepare for the exams (to paraphrase). Thank God for the peace and calmness He placed in each and everyone of His children's hearts as we did our papers.

Its really wierd once you finish your papers, you just feel like its any other normal day. There is no rush of happiness... perhaps just a sigh of relief...followed by a sense of lost. Well, i guess the ending is just hyped up by many before us.

Now, need to spend my time wisely, plan my timetable for the long hols ahead.

On a different but heavier note, i dunno why this always keep happening. Now there's no more school, but yet... Im really confused...

The Road Less Taken

When you are at the crossroads of life, and you can't decide which path to take. There are a million thoughts in your head, telling you to do this or that. I would choose to follow God's will, and walk the road less taken. God never promised it would be all smooth-sailing. He never said that there wouldn't be trials. But He has promised that He will be carrying you all the way through. On eagle's wings, you will soar above the storms, and there will only be 1 pair of shoeprints along that road. The Road Less Taken - God's guided path to success. A wrong decision, and it's going to be hard to turn back. Will you decide now to follow Jesus?

The Road Not Taken (Robert Frost)

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same.

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

We that seeketh God today,
find His perfection so great.
It is high as heaven, deeper than the sea.
And when we trust and obey,
We ask and pray that God will show us His way.

We that seeketh His will and pray,
find His presence so near today.
He is closer than a brother or a friend.
For Jesus washed our sins away,
made our garments white as day.
God sent His son and on the cross He lay.

We know that Jesus rose again.
We shall never be ashamed,
to share the gospel and speak of His name.
In hope that many will say,
"I know I am born again,
for Jesus is my saviour today"

So we'll lift up our eyes towards Him,
lift up our face so clean.
We will shine forth so bright,
as bright as the morning light.
For we don't have to fear,
there is hope we know for sure,
for we can rest secure in Him.

Empty me of myself today, Lord. Fill me with Your Holy Spirit...
Do i really know what it means to love You?

James 1:2-4
My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations; Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.

Grow up, Pat, grow up...

Chris Rice: Come to Jesus

He's waiting for us with opened arms...

I really do miss my morning runs so much. There is this deep longing to let my legs do their job, to push myself to the limits, while enjoying the cool breeze racing through my hair. I was feeling rather upset with myself for not be able to qualm that urge in me to just go for a run. It does not feel good to be cooped up in the house all day long after school, and the desire keeps growing, especially when I see my friends running.

In retrospect, I realised something about this desire. Why can't we all long for Jesus in our lives the way I long to run, the way we all long for things of this earth. Is not Jesus greater than all of these?

I made a choice today, hopefully in His will. All these things happen for a reason, for a greater plan.

I'm so glad to be home the whole day for once. The past 5 days have been very exhausting, going to and fro to NTU, but I'm thankful its over for now. Actually its pretty amazing how God has guided me through the past 5 days. I felt surprisingly relaxed despite having to study for common tests during each and every break. Yes, I was indeed tired and sick as well, but there was no stress, no breaking point, which I am ultimately grateful for. Thank God for even the chance to go over to camp for worship, despite the crazy schedule (eh jumzy, thks for the rides man, really appreciate it).

I am really really not prepared for this common test. There is so much to be done, yet so little time. But I'm just surrendering it all into His hands. I was recalling a song I used to sing in sunday school when I was a kid. It goes:
Give me oil in my lamp,
keep me burning burning burning,
give me oil in my lamp, I pray.
Give me oil in my lamp,
keep me burning burning burning,
keep me burning til the break of day.
So i will sing hosanna,
sing hosanna,
sing hosanna to the King of Kings.
And i will sing hosanna,
sing hosanna,
sing hosanna to the King of Kings.
I really miss singing these kiddie songs that convey such a simple message: He will sustain us.

Psalms 71:3
Be thou my strong habitation, whereunto I may continually resort: thou hast given commandment to save me; for thou art my rock and my fortress.

I need that mountain moving faith...
Help me, Lord. I'm feeling quite lost this week.
I can't do this on my own. I need You more than ever...

Matthew 21:21 Verily I say unto you, If ye have faith, and doubt not, ye shall not only do this [which is done] to the fig tree, but also if ye shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; it shall be done.

A learning journey

A bus ride really got me thinking...

Well, a friend and i were going to hougang for class CIP and we werent sure which stop to alight. My friend then approached the bus driver for directions, but was denied an accurate reply. He proceeded to ask the bus driver permission to get off the bus to check the bus guide at a busstop. The bus driver however, DROVE OFF WITHOUT HIM, leaving me on the bus with no idea where to alight, and him stranded at the busstop without his belongings. In the end, i alighted 2 stops away from my destination while he alighted 2 busstops before. All this while, we were fortunate to have communication by handphone. To cut a long story short, we finally met at the correct busstop, with him spotting me from about 300m away to guide me there.

There is so much to learn from this quite interesting episode. As i was walking back to the correct busstop, i thought about the Christian life. This is exactly what happens when we are lost, undirected and unguided, just like how i was on the bus. We dont know where to go, what to do and how to live our lives because we have forgotten about God. But then when we remember to rely on Him, He provides us with maps, signs that will lead us in the right direction, just like the bus guide. But, even with the bus guide, we could still go the wrong way, just like how i alighted 2 busstops away from where i was supposed to go. It is then that we should just ask God in prayer to show and lead the way in the right direction, just like how i called my friend to ask him how to walk back to the right busstop. Moreover, as mentioned how my friend spotted me 300m away, God will spot the lost from heaven and guide us back into His loving arms. Just like my friend was a call away, so is God a prayer away. Will you then ask Him to guide you back into the path of righteousness. Im thankful for His guidance.

Newsong - Trust His Heart

All things work for our good
though sometimes we can't see how they could.
Struggles that break our hearts in two
sometimes blind us to the truth.
Our Father knows what's best for us;
His ways are not our own.
So, when your pathway grows dim,
and you just can’t see Him,
Remember He's still on the throne.

God is too wise to be mistaken.
God is too good to be unkind.
So when you don't understand,
when you don't see His plan,
When you can't trace His hand, trust His heart.

He sees the Master plan.
He holds the future in His hands.
So don't live as those who have no hope.
All our hope is found in Him.
We walk in present knowledge,
but He sees the first and the last.
And like a tapestry, He's weaving you and me
to someday be just like Him.

God is too wise to be mistaken.
God is too good to be unkind.
So when you don't understand,
when you don't see His plan,
When you can't trace His hand, trust His heart.

It's the little things that make the BIG difference

Yesterday's Uth was different.
Nope...not the worship, despite the fact that james was singing without a mike. Neither was it the message, although it was important all the same.
It was the ending prayer of a very special child of God in the midst of everyone - Japheth. The very mutter of words emerging from the mouth of a boy disabled since he was 1. Ian asked and he agreed, so readily. Many people in his shoes would definitely not dare to speak in front of everyone, let alone pray. But yet, he did not care how others would view his stuttering, his inability to express himself for others to understand.
Yes, it was this child-like faith that moved me. I could not understand anything he said at first except the words 'dear God' and 'amen'. But as christopher translated for us after the prayer, his words hit me hard. 'Despite my body, i will still walk with You'. I was moved. This guy, wheelchaired since 1, did not let his disabilities bring him down, but is continually living a life for God!
I really thank God for Japeth being such a blessing in the Uth ministry. Why cant we all have this child-like, mountain moving faith? Indeed, a wake up call as well...

Chris Tomlin's Amazing Grace

Woah, this has to be one of the best versions of the song out there. The bridge is especially amazing.