where's the interest?

hmmm.

if there were, time wouldnt be an issue, would it?

on another note, with the question raised, and no being the answer.

on hindsight, perhaps yes, cos its essentially what i wanted.

but oh wells, patience patience patience.

its like

the clouds shifted away

the shades removed from my eyes

to which i say, i do know now.

and to which i say, no.

liking the wings to soar

the other side to fun

but God, grant me patience, and wisdom

so much more relaxed,

a lot happier, strangely.

ironic.

but, perhaps not so much so.

thoughts.

but patience is key, i guess.

God, not mine but Your will be done.

missing how things were before.

can't understand why.

God, you see each heart.

Once. Twice. Three times.

Can i overlook?

Do i know what im doing?

Where do my priorities lie?

Things i do enjoy, do i have to give them up?

I want to understand.

Expectations are natural, arent they?

So tell me, what am i supposed to do?

At the crossroad and stuck.

Part of me has been thinking about this for such a long time,

and yet, nothing said, nothing done.

When i do try, somehow things reverse themselves,

and i find myself at a loss of words.

So show me.

new school year ahead...
Lord, help me make the best use of my time,
and to always remember to seek You first.

acceptance is one thing,

but what i really hope to see is a change.

otherwise its just going to get harder and harder with time and busy-ness.

that being said, im good (:

The Climb

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

Amazing journey.

Amazing experience.

Amazing friends.

Amazing bonds

but most of all Amazing Grace

Cos You are an Amazing God. (:

thank You.

i could not have finished this without You.

because He lives, I can face tomorrow

“There are moments in life, when the heart is so full of emotion

That if by chance it be shaken, or into its depths like a pebble

Drops some careless word, it overflows, and its secret,

Spilt on the ground like water, can never be gathered together”

~ Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

http://www.rbc.org/bible-study/strength-for-the-journey/daily-strength.aspx

tk you sis, for this encouraging passage, tk God for ya :)

The God I know (CHC)

When the stage is bare tonight

There’s no one else
Just You and me
When the curtains close behind
There’s no pretense
I’m on my knees

I will lay down my life
For the love sacrifice
You gave to me
It’s all because of You
All because of You

The God I know
Righteous and Holy
The God I know
Faithful and true
The God I know
My tower of refuge
Hearts are healed
Christ revealed

The God I know
Light of the City
The God I know
Strengthens the weak
The God I know
Your heart beats within me
As You are, so are we

This is my cry
My one desire
More of You
More of You

The church He knows
Righteous and Holy
The church He knows
Is faithful and true
The church He knows
A tower of refuge
Hearts are healed
Christ revealed

The church He knows
Light of this city
The church He knows
Strengthens the weak
The church He knows
Is strong and mighty
As He is, so are we

can't say i wasn't affected. and things remain in my mind for a while.

to accept the things i can't change. God please help.

Strong Arm of God :)

a new adventure into the unknown, but hey, each day brings new blessings :)

for You, Lord, have not forsaken those who seek You. - Psalms 9:10

With a heavy heart and sinking feet,
I trod along this cold dark street.
Where people only stopped to stare,
and no one bothered to stop and care.

I cried to myself, no one would understand
the problems a young child could possibly have.
I thought I was all alone, the shadows and me
til I heard a still, small voice, someone speaking whom I could not see.

My child my child, when the world seems to be crashing down on you,
I have always been here waiting for you.
I want you to know, you have a friend,
someone who can lend a helping hand.

I did not really understand, and wondered who is this man.
To which the reply came, Jesus, I am.
I am the way, the truth the life, he said.
And this universe and you, I made.

Just call out to me, fearful one.
And you will no longer be alone.
I will be your guide and shield.
And I can even provide your next meal.

I gazed upwards towards the source,
and with trembling lips said, I want to know you, but what is the cost.
I paid it all for you, he said,
when I gave up my life, on the cross I laid.

And then I knew, and fear fled away.
And in my heart, I silently prayed,
Dear Jesus, mend this heart of mine,
break it and use it for its truly thine.

And now, I find myself on a street brighly lit,
with people smiling, everyone I meet.
I once was blind, but now I see.
The answer was always just right in front of me.

Slow Fade

people change, for better or for worse.
it is never overnight.
a progressive day-by-day modification.
a slow-fade or a gradual improvement.

for the experience,
for the fun,
for the people,
for one's own face and name.

when God is not in the centre of a life, it's definitely a slow fade.

2010

new year, new beginning.
a fresh start.
time to move on.

God, will You help me?