10 things i want to do (the list can go on):
1. get violin right
2. learn ballroom
3. finish driving
4. go to the new sentosa adventure park
5. go ion :) (soon to be fulfilled?)
6. do dip? (i want, but its quite impossible with the crazy schedule)
7. go for end of yr missions
8. visit jy/char in europe
9. floorball/tennis in nus? hmm.
10. finally understand things heh

4-3-2-1

4 people of different backgrounds, yet 4 very good friends.
3 in medicine, one taking history.
2 local, 2 london.
1 thing in common: <3

when i got the news that my grandma wasnt feeling well again, it suddenly dawned upon me that recently, i have been spending very little time talking to her. ever since i stopped working, i have been busy doing so many other things that i have neglected the more important ones. its like martha being so busy fussing about things. i'd rather be mary, sitting at Jesus feet, and drawing nearer to Jesus. similarly, i feel a need to spend more time with her.

somehow i wonder why this is happening...but then it has hit me pretty hard. i need to spend my time more wisely. Lord, help me to draw closer to You as well.

i miss the times when things were so much simpler...

is it just about feelings?

well, i guess when you choose to come back to God, He works great and marvelous things through you. after the struggle, i had an opportunity to share the gospel with a friend, who was assured of his salvation and may want to come to church. amazing. thank God.

Chris Tomlin - Come home running

lyrics below =)

Come Home Running - Chris Tomlin

Oh heart of mine, why must you stray?
From one so fair you run away
And one more time you have to pay
The heaviness of needless shame

Oh heart of mine, come back home
You've been too long out on your own
And He's been there all along
Watching for you down the road

So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are

Oh child of God so dearly loved
And ransomed by the Savior's blood
And called by name, daughter and son
Wrapped in the robe of righteousness

my mind is so unfocused.
its like i'm so caught up with so many things happening around me that i feel lost.
it seems so difficult to worship Him when i cant keep my eyes fixed above
and there are these thoughts that float into my head that are very disturbing
thoughts about salvation, thoughts about heaven and hell, thoughts about living and walking the Christian life.
i just cant explain why this is happening.
its like i want to serve Him, but my heart does not seem to be right with Him.
i really miss that joy i once had when i first came to this church.
i am just reminded about how i was once so on fire for God.
and now... i really don't know where i stand.
whatever these may be, i just really want to come back to Him.
i need You.

it's just crazy when there are 4.
and somehow it just happens to be all at the same time.
even with just 2, there are still a lot of implications.
major headache...

it's only when you hear about the problems others are facing, that you realise yours are so minute and insignificant compared to theirs.

JOY - Jesus, Others, Yourself

feeling a little lost.
Lord, where are You?

and because of the past few weeks, it seems like nothing has changed.
don't know if its a good or bad thing.
blocking? hmm. hope not.

quite some ppl asked me that same question, either days back or right this morning.
honestly, i don't really know how to respond.
and now, its just school...
hmm...just keep praying...

the 's' word? i guess so...

4 days and 3 nights.
thank God for everything that has happened - the bonding, the friendships, the opportunities to share about Christ.
M2s! thanks for making all these possible.

a whole new environment to adapt to.
i wouldnt say it would be easy.
but i'm sure sooner or later, things will be "routinised"

pretty much want school to start.
good distraction for a lot of things going on around.
to everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under heaven.




you know, ever since that day, i dont think much has changed.
did i even expect things to change? im not sure myself.
but God, this is all Yours. teach me, lead me.
when i am faltering, i still will find You there.

new beginning, new surroundings,
new faces that you've never seen.
what's through the doorway, don't know anymore heh.
it's like the world just got a little larger.

interesting day...
some things are just strange.
and now im wondering...well, as God leads =)