my mind is so unfocused.
its like i'm so caught up with so many things happening around me that i feel lost.
it seems so difficult to worship Him when i cant keep my eyes fixed above
and there are these thoughts that float into my head that are very disturbing
thoughts about salvation, thoughts about heaven and hell, thoughts about living and walking the Christian life.
i just cant explain why this is happening.
its like i want to serve Him, but my heart does not seem to be right with Him.
i really miss that joy i once had when i first came to this church.
i am just reminded about how i was once so on fire for God.
and now... i really don't know where i stand.
whatever these may be, i just really want to come back to Him.
i need You.