Been very busy that I have distant away from You, Lord. Please draw me back into your loving hands, and keep me there as close as possible. I know I cant lead a life without You. But every night, I know deep in my heart that I have turned my eyes away from You for most of the day, just concentrating on my own personal life. The only quiet moment is when I am lying on my bed, reflecting on the day, that I realise that I havent relied on You, but on my own strength to get through that day. Maybe that's why i get tired easily. Help me to pray just to be in Your presence. I need to get back into focus, with You in the centre of my life. Life isnt just the way it is.

Class outing!

In the end, i decided to go for class outing after all, even though i went out for 3 consecutive days. And I made a good choice =). It was ultra-fun. Bowling, pool and just chatting and laughing! This time, 12 ppl turned up, but the girls were outnumbered by the no of guys. Guess most of our class girls are a hardworking bunch lol (not me man). I havent bowled for ages, probably 2 years already. Haha, but slow and steady wins the race man. The balls that i rolled ended up straight down the middle, but took its time to reach the pins. Managed to have a max pinfall of 7 for each round, but kept switching shoes with Iris so that we could take turns, cos max 10 ppl for 2 lanes la. Oh yea, then spent 2 hours learning how to pool. Have never pooled in my life, first time trying. Only managed to get the hang of it like last 30 mins. But i guess it was a super fun class outing =). See our happy faces below:

Love as He loved, Give as He gave

My Father loved us before we first loved Him.
He forgave us by dying on the cross for our sins.
Christ taught us the power of LOVE and of FORGIVENESS.

It's not easy to forgive and forget; to live and let live.
But i shall leave it all behind me.
I forgive easily, but i do not necessarily forget.

Stop testing my patience, and stretching me to the limits.
For even the strongest of ties can break.
And wounds can heal, but scars remain.

Oh help me God to forgive and to love the people you created like You did.

The ones that matter the most =)

I miss all of you dearies. You all make my day, touch my heart and just make me happy all the time. Love u guys! Had a nice catching-up time with you all today. JY, miss you loads. YZ, glad to see you again. Char, thanks for always being there. =)

Well...

I really wonder why misunderstandings like this happen?
Maybe its partly my fault, and Im sorry.
Hope u understand...

A Timely Word

Opened the 40 day booklet to 16th July
And the heading read, "Honour your parents'
How timely.
Was just pouting and sulking over a decision made.
But His word made up my mind.
Yes. I shall respect authority.
After all, all decisions made are for my own good.
Shall do what i have to do...
I'm glad You taught me a lesson.
You really woke me up.

Loves

1) God (He is My ALL IN ALL)
2) My Parents (they're always there for me, supporting me in everything i do. MUM+DAD=LOVE)
3) My Bro (sth can be annoying, but i tink we get along really well and we are really close)
4) Music (universal language, i cant do without it)
5) Piano (same same)
6) Floorball (NOT the same as HOCKEY LOR)
7) Glorious Food!!! (oh crap, Im always eating...how can not put on weight like that???)
8) Slacking (haha some ppl know me so well huh)
9) Sleeping (im always tired. dun seem to be getting enough sleep though i sleep early...or maybe im just plain lazy =P)
10) Blogging (i update k!)

In the end

Many doors have been opened,
in many areas.
That's life.
Full of downs, but many more ups.
I am grateful =)

Happy Birthday Bubbles!

Love u fren. Im glad to have made a fren like u, and im happy that we have been such close frens ever since last year. Have a really joyful 17th Birthday, and may all ur wishes come true! =) Thank u for lending a helping hand whenever possible, for being at the l'odge with me every morning, and for just being a great fren. Whee! Hope u like the presents.

100% human responsibility, yet 100% divine activity.
I realise I have not turned my eyes to You these few days.
I realise I have relied on myself for comfort and not You.
I realise that I need You more and more in my life.
I realise that Your grace is always sufficient.
I realise that I have to remind myself that I live for You alone.
I realise I am not perfect, only You are.
I realise I need to surrender and let Your spirit fill me.
I realise that life is worth living with You.
Let me realise more of my potential when You are in me.
Open the eyes of my heart, Lord.

What a Friend we have in Jesus, all our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilege to carry everything to God in prayer!
O what peace we often forfeit, O what needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry everything to God in prayer.

Anyway, a side note to a sis, who touched my heart when God spoke through her to me. I thank God for a friend who has been always there for me (u know who you are!)

Left with the used-to-bes

I really really miss floorball. I miss the team players. I miss Coach Jill. I miss playing and practising together as a team. As I entered the indoor sports hall yesterday after walking there with some seniors, I felt a sense of lost. What was I doing there? It felt like yesterday when I was training with you'll (maybe it was). Smiling faces smiled at me to welcome me, but I somehow felt as if I din belong in the sea of black and white. The wanting in me to be one of those out of the courts and not in the crowd watching keeps nagging at the back of my mind. I know that if its not meant to be, then i should live and let live, but I seem to be always left with the used-to-bes. Oh wells, life goes on anyway. I wish the team all the best. Floorball will still be a passion burning inside of me, and I hope i can pass this passion on. Even though I may not be playing, I will be there physically to give your moral support. Come on Raffles Floorball, you'll can do it! =)

Food Day

Went out with char and yz, sec 2 pals, yet we're so very close, and I'm really glad that these friendships have blossomed and not died down. Met at orchard and ended up eating at crystal jade as usual (haha we are always eating there lor). Then walked all around orchard looking window-shopping and waiting for the food to digest. However...we couldnt resist the smell of FAMOUS AMOS wafting from the stall at wisma, and we bought a second round of FOOD - a belgian brownie for me (indulgence man!). My frens ended up buying earrings, but I decided not to spend YET, cos i had $80 worth of vouchers to spend elsewhere. After all the browsing, we walked towards John Little/Centrepoint. Along the way, we came to SWENSONS, and YES, we stopped for FOOD again! Such pigs we are! Ate some ice-cream. The combi is really wierd and made me very full, but its good to be enjoying food. It was some yam ice-cream with 3 fried sesame balls filled with red bean paste. The bottom of the cup was also filled with red-beans and the top of the ice cream covered with blueberry toppings. HAHA. Man, i should upload the pics. Anyway, walked to john little to spend the vouchers, and ended up detouring to each john little and robinsons 3 times (so our ice cream really digested fast). Bought a bag in the end =) Yay, cant wait to go out with you all again (this time with jy, im so happy she's coming back).

Thank God Its Friday

It's Friday today,
a load of my mind.
A lot of thing's been happening,
But He has been kind.

His burden is heavy,
my yoke is light.
For He took everything for me,
and made things right.

I have a lot to be grateful for,
He guided my path.
And i could not have asked for anything more
For He's My All in All.

Thank God its friday,
Im looking forward to church,
to worship and praise Him,
for His Love and for never ever leaving me in the lurch. =D

Faithful Father

Father, I can't explain this kind of love
This kind of grace
I know I still break Your heart
And yet You run to welcome me

This is my song of praise to You
For who You are and all that You do
From the moment my life began
You have been faithful

Father, I love the way You hold me close
And say my name
I know when my life is through
My heart will find its home in You

This is my song of praise to You
For who You are and all that You do
From the moment my life began
You have been faithful
Forever faithful

You say, God says verses

Took this off a friend's blog (who got it from an email) with his permission of course.
Thought it was meaningful and decided to share it.

God has a positive answer for everything.

You say: "It's impossible"God says: All things are possible(Luke 18:27)
You say: "I'm too tired"God says: I will give you rest(Matthew 11:28-30)
You say: "Nobody really loves me"God says: I love you(John 3:16 & John 3:34)
You say: "I can't go on"God says: My grace is sufficient(2 Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)
You say: "I can't figure things out"God says: I will direct your steps(Proverbs 3:5- 6)
You say: "I can't do it"God says: You can do all things(Philippians 4:13)
You say: "I'm not able"God says: I am able(2 Corinthians 9:8)
You say: "It's not worth it"God says: It will be worth it(Roman 8:28 )
You say: "I can't forgive myself"God says: I Forgive you(1 John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
You say: "I can't manage"God says: I will supply all your needs(Philippians 4:19)
You say: "I'm afraid"God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear(2 Timothy 1:7)
You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"God says: Cast all your cares on Me(1 Peter 5:7)
You say: "I'm not smart enough"God says: I give you wisdom(1 Corinthians 1:30)
You say: "I feel all alone"God says: I will never leave you nor forsake you(Hebrews 13:5)

Share this. YOU NEVER KNOW WHO MAY BE IN NEED!

Light in the darkness

One set of footprints in the sand.
That's when I knew He was there,
and He carried me.

A miracle today.
A sign of His presence in my life.
I am grateful!

This is It!

It's the last lap. As my friend so aptly put it, let's sprint all the way, and not slow down.
Can we do this? Yes, we can! =)

Peace

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
- Philippians 4:6-7

Who says there can be peace and tranquility?
How is it possible when there are so many things to worry about?
The Bible told me so.
Peace will be with His children forever.

And that sums up the 5 important values that I treasure.
To Him be the glory.

Prayer

I need to pray, because I'm small (and You are great).
I need to pray, because I know very clearly,
that Your feelings and Your intentions mean the most to me.
I need to pray, and I can't deny it any longer.
I need to pray, because I need Your love and Your care.
You alone understand the paths that I have taken and what I have gone through.
There are some things that I can and only wish to share with You,
because You loved me more than anyone else ever could.
When my heart is sinking,
I know You will wipe away every tear from my eyes.
I will say this every morning that I live:
"Today, I will live for You and You alone."
You give me the strength that I need to live each day.
Your grace is enough to sustain me.

Love

Why did God take so much care to make creation glow
He could have made it black and white,
and we'ld have never known.
And what made God send Jesus to die on calvary,
of course it was this joyous thing I feel inside of me.
It can change a family, its already changed the world.
When Jesus brings it to our heart,
Heaven's banneries unfurl.
And once you start to share it, in His precious name.
You're glad to see your view of life will never be the same.
That's the Love of God, its never ending.
That's the Love of God, always forgiving.
He's always there, He never fails,
all He will do is Love forever,
and He Loves to share it,
That's the Love of God.

Blessed

When you meet others around you,
who are hurting, suffering, down and out
you finally realise how fortunate and blessed you are.
You have so many things others dont have,
and yet sometimes avarice strikes and you crave for more
But remember that everything you have does not belong to you,
it belongs to Him alone.
Everything you have on Earth is transient,
only He is real.
Everything He blesses you with,
be grateful for.
Everything you need,
ask Him and you shall be given.
But everything that you want, crave
remove it, remove the temptations of sin.
And you will be richly blessed by the grace of God.
I am blessed, and hope to be a blessing to others!

Hope

A hope is not a feeling, neither is it a dream.
Dreams are unrealistic, unfulfilled desires and cravings of the mind.
But hopes are real and attainable.
When you are certain of what you hope for, that's because you have faith.
For faith gives you hope.
What you hope for, you cannot see.
Not only do we hope for things to happen,
He hopes too.
He unleashes all hope on us, his children.
To bring forth glory and bear abundant fruit.
His hopes should be our hopes.

Happy Father's Day

My daddy is not perfect
After all he is completely human.
But he brought me up to who i am now
And i am ultimately grateful for his upbringing.

Happy Father's Day to all daddies out there who have raised their children to the best of their ability, just like my daddy has! =)

Way Back Into Love

Hugh Grant – Way Back Into Love lyrics

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

Oh oh oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Oh oh oh



More song lyrics at LyricsMode

The Ching-Ping and I

The Movie Outing of the Year =P

Holiday fun

Its really nice to meet up with friends whom you havent talked to for a long while, just to hang out and have fun. Had a long and good chat with 2 of CLIQUE 2006 (aww, the rest couldnt make it). YOU ALL SERIOUSLY ROCK! =) Yeap, i have missed these people loads: Ching, Ping, Mud,Joiz. Since we split up in JC, there seemed to be hardly anytime for us to be together like we once were in Sec 4, yet, we have managed to keep in contact, celebrating each other's 17th birthday as it came and went. Thanks for all the wonderful times we had together.

Smsed Ching to asked her if she wanted to watch a movie, and just like that, she agreed. Met up with Ching for lunch at taka delifrance, chatting about school life, relationships and church. Yay, im glad u are just a call away. Then, we walked over to lido, and booked tickets for 3 for Fantastic 4! (for 3, cos Ping came much later - she din see the sms LOL). During the waiting time, we sat outside lido and mugged =P. Actually mugging seems fun when u are with close frens, and there is a chance to chat when u get bored.

Anyway, the movie was great. Truth be told, im not the kind who likes to watch action-packed shows based on comics like this and Superman, but this movie was indeed worth the money. And best of all, it taught the most important life lessons - 1) SACRIFICE and 2) There is always a choice in life. When silver surfer was caught, invisible girl questioned him, and was told he was under orders to destroy the earth, and that He had no choice. But, invisible girl rebuked him and told him that there were always choices in life. In the end, the silver surfer turned against his master, and sacrificed his life to heal invisible girl as well as to save the planet from destruction. As he was about to risk it all, he said (to Mr Fantastic), "Tell her she's right, there is always a choice in life". Well-said. I thought this was the most impactful statement made in the entire movie.
Linking this to the christian life, people always say they have no choice but to do this and that, and sin against God, but there is always a choice. It's whether or not u make the better decision. Also, sacrifice is what God has always been talking about in the bible. Jesus sacrificed His life, for the atonement of our sins. But are we ready to be a part of the sacrifice, by giving up our current lives and taking up the cross to follow him?

Ok, so after the movie, we took ages to decide where to eat and ended up at Mos. And we took lotsa pics after that haha! Yay, thanks guys =) Oops kinda got problem with e pics. Hmm later then.

It's The Little Things

Over the years, I've grown to be a part of you
You've cared for me and opened the way to a happy and beautiful life
You make me feel warm and safe and give me hope for brighter days

It's the little things that we share, the love and joy that's in the air
The children's laughter everywhere, and all our favourite things
Over the years, I've grown accustomed to your ways
And no matter where I'll be, it warms my heart to know that
You're always here for me

Over the years, I've learnt we share a destiny
And no matter how good others may be
No one cares like you care for me
Cause deep down inside I feel you're a part of me
My family, the place that I call my Home

Oh, how fortunate I am to be born into such a loving family =)

We are His Children

One simple question by a young one
left me stunned today!
He asked me what was the Rapture
and i din know wad to say.

In the end,
i turned to ask
a fren
who gave me an answer.
Only then could i tell the little boy.

I feel ashamed, and sorry that i know so little about You! I need the wisdom and strength and guidance.

On a lighter note, the children are so cute. I made a new little friend. He sat on my lap, clapped my hands, and hugged me. These kids, they really make my day, and warm my heart. I thank God for them!

For God wants us to be humble

This is a very good story to remind mankind not to be self-centered.
Instead, be humble and caring towards others, show love and care.

Because God first loved us........

A voyaging ship was wrecked during a storm at sea and only two of the men on it were able to swim to a small desert-like island. The two survivors, not knowing what else to do, agreed that they had no other resourse but to pray to God. However, to find out whose prayer was more powerful, they agreed to divide the territory between them and stay on opposite sides of the island. The first thing the first man prayed for was food. The next morning, the first man saw a fruit-bearing tree on his side of the land, and he was able to eat its fruit. The other man's parcel of land remained barren. After a week, the first man was lonely and he decided to pray for a wife. The next day, another ship was wrecked, and the only survivor was a woman who swam to his side of the land. On the other side of the island, there was nothing. Soon the first man prayed for a house, clothes, more food. The next day, like magic, all of these were given to him. However, the second man still had nothing. Finally, the first man prayed for a ship, so that his wife and he could leave the island. In the morning, he found a ship docked at his side of the island. The first man boarded the ship with his wife and decided to leave the second man on the island. He considered the other man unworthy to receive God's blessings, since none of his prayers had been answered. As the ship was about to leave, the first man heard a voice from Heaven booming,"Why are you leaving your companion on the island?" "My blessings are mine alone, since I was the one who prayed for them,"the first man answered. "His prayers were all unanswered, and so he does not deserve anything." "You have mistaken!" the voice rebuked him. "He had only one prayer, which I answered.If not for that, you would not have received any of my blessings." "Tell me," the first man asked the voice,"what did he pray for that I should owe him anything?" "He prayed that all your prayers be answered." For all we know, our blessings are not the fruits of our prayers alone, but those of another praying for us.

Philippians 2:3-4
3 Do nothing out of selfishness or out of vain glory; rather, humbly regard others as more important than yourselves,4 each looking out not for his own interests, but (also) everyone for those of others.

1 Corinthians 1:31
31 Let him who boasts boast of the Lord.

Yummy

Ok this is a random Ben's and Jerry's ice-cream test.

Your Score: Brownie Batter!

You scored 77% SWEET, 55% CHUNKY, and 59% UNIQUE!

brownie batter ice cream with a rich brownie batter swirl

Mmmm....you are a very sweet mix indeed! You are warm, loving, and caring to all those around you, but you're not boring in the least! You have a wild streak and a creative, unique streak, too. You are a great friend, an interesting person, and you know how to have fun without ending up crouching over a toilet bowl. Nice!

HAHA! =)

go to The Ben & Jerry's Ice Cream Flavor Test for the fun of it!

Why?

Sometimes, i question why things occur this way. I could have been somewhere different now, but i am not. But all things happen for a reason. We may not know this, but God has a purpose for all of us. Do not question your life and His decisions. I need to learn to, like everyone else. Its human nature to question our lives. Why, why, and why? But faith is being sure of what we hope for, and certain of what we do not see. Heb 11:1 He is the shepherd, and I'm the lamb. Light the path for me, Lord, so i may learn to follow.

Class outing

Whee...

Class outing was a success. Although only 8 ppl turned up, but im sure everyone had fun. We had it at east coast park. If it were a town outing, it would have been divided cos the guys would have wanted to lan, and the girls shopping. Anyway, most of us chose to rollerblade, while a few went cycling. Haha, got a chance to practise my skills after approx 4 years? Not bad, surprisingly can still rem how to rollerblade. Wow, it costs like $12 bucks for 2hrs man, and a hole in my pocket. But the fun-factor was 5 thumbs up, so worth it! Lunch at macs, then somehow all the girls ordered fillet-o-fish, so we took a pic with that. =) After lunch, all full and satiated, ended up playing volleyball, which turned out to be a ball catching session cos everybody whacked so hard and the ball flew everywhere. Hmm, for some reason, we stopped, and ended up playing cards cos the girls started it, and the guys came to join. Played dai-dee and i was on a winning streak! Not bad, class outing for more than 5 hours, plus it was dtz's bday. Only rem to wish him when we were leaving. Happy Bday TZ!

Here's a group pic:

Impossible is Nothing

When things are not going your way,
just bow ur head,
and pray,
for God to guide the way.

I surrender.
Let's move on.
Never give up for God is on our side.
And nothing is impossible with Him.

Count your blessings,
not your weaknesses.
Live the life God wants us to live:
more of Him, and less of me.

Jesus loves me, this I know,
For the Bible tells me so!
God loves the little children,
all the children of the World!

Faith and fear

There is just a thin line
that divides fear and faith.
We may not know it,
but we are always living in a cave
of darkness,
that is fearfulness.
We are lost, and empty inside
when there is no one by our sides.

With a hand that reaches out,
to grab us from within,
we reach the light at the end of the tunnel,
when we have faith in Him.
To cross the barrier of fear,
we have to learn to trust,
so that we'll have peace here,
within us, so in Him i trust!

全能的创造主

你使天空绚丽，大地富足
你令江河涌流，群山复苏
你使百鸟欢唱，百花盛开
你赐生命绵延，命令万物

哈利路亚，全能的创造主
哈利路亚，万国万民都向你跪拜

崇山峻岭向你曲膝敬拜
江河湖海为你翩翩起舞
诸天穹苍传扬你的荣耀
日月星宿向你扬声欢呼

哈利路亚，全能的创造主
哈利路亚，万国万民都向你跪拜

我心赞美你，永远赞美你
一生都要赞美那伟大的创造主

哈利路亚，全能的创造主
哈利路亚，万国万民都向你跪拜

CTs

Thank You for being there.
Today,
as i stared blankly at the sheet of paper
You gave me the inspiration,
And helped me to pen my thoughts.

I am grateful for Your presence in the cold,
when my brain froze,
but my heart felt warm.
Although i found the 2nd step difficult,
and i felt like giving up,
but i completed the race.

Could have done better if I had a jacket though.
Oh well, taking it a step at time,
as You have instructed!
Learning to trust.

One tiny step at a time

As I go forward step by step, the way will be opened up unto me. --- Proverbs 4:12
Tomorrow is GP cts. Just an encouraging phrase from the bible to inspire us to work hard! =)

A reflection of our lives

The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised. - Job 1:21

God can take away so that there may be greater blessings to come. His ways are not our ways. Our lives are indeed surrounded by the 2 quotes above. The 2nd sentence sinks right into my heart. Many of our setbacks (especially for me this year) are our desires, hopes and dreams that were unfulfilled, but they may not have been His, for His ways are higher than our ways (Isaiah 55:9). We may never know His plans, but for each tiny step we take, He will lead us onto the next one, so that we may eventually be a blessing to ourselves and others around us. Thus, when he removes something or someone from our lives, we should not fret, but be grateful for the more exciting and bigger things and blessings to come.

We live by faith,
and not by sight.
In the darkness you are
By our side.

We live by faith,
and give you pride.
Forever you are worthy to be
Our light.

Our Parents were sent by God to look after us!

An 80 year old man was sitting on the sofa in his house along with his 45 years old highly educated son. Suddenly a crow perched on their window.

The Father asked his Son, "What is this?" The Son replied "It is a crow".

After a few minutes, the Father asked his Son the 2nd time, "What is this?" The Son said "Father, I have just now told you "It's a crow".

After a little while, the old Father again asked his Son the 3rd time, What is this?" At this time some expression of irritation was felt in the Son's tone when he said to his Father with a rebuff. "It's a crow, a crow, a crow".

A little after, the Father again asked his Son the 4th time, "What is this?" This time the Son shouted at his Father, "Why do you keep asking me the same question again and again, although I have told you so many times 'IT IS A CROW'. Are you not able to understand this?"

A little later the Father went to his room and came back with an old tattered diary, which he had maintained since his Son was born. On opening a page, he asked his Son to read that page. When the son read it, the following words were written in the diary :"Today my little son aged three was sitting with me>on the sofa, when a crow was sitting on the window. My Son asked me 23 times what it was, and I replied to him all 23 times that it was a Crow. I hugged him lovingly each time he asked me the same question again and again for 23 times. I did not at all feel irritated I rather felt affection for my innocent child". While the little child asked him 23 times "What is this", the Father had felt no irritation in replying to the same question all 23 times and when today the Father asked his Son the same question just 4 times, the Son felt irritated and annoyed.

So..If your parents attain old age, do not repulse them or look at them as a burden, but speak to them a gracious word, be cool, obedient, humble and kind to them. Be considerate to your parents. From today say this aloud, "I want to see my parents happy forever. They have cared for me ever since I was a little child. They have always showered their selfless love on me. They crossed all mountains and valleys without seeing the storm and heat to make me person presentable in the society today". Say a prayer to God, "I will serve my old parents in the BEST way. I will say all goodand kind words to my dear parents, no matter how they behave."

My class and 3J's cool teachers

Our class party!

Shattered dreams yet full of Hopes

Life in my CCA has just started and I will not let it end here. I was very upset and disappointed when i heard the news yesterday. Nothing seemed to be going right for me. Maybe controlling my emotions is kinda hard, and letting it out makes me feel better. Thank God for those who were there to comfort me in these dark times,especially my parents. But I thank Him the most for being there to guide the way for me. He probably has other better plans for me, which He wants me to fulfil. And i shouldnt be living my own life, but living the life He wants me to live, for His purpose. For in Christ alone, I place my trust! I will not let setbacks get to me.

On a lighter note, I dint screw up chem SPA today. YAY! =)

He will cast away all your worries

Philipians 4:6-7

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

When we do not trust in Him, when we lose faith in thy first love, when we forget the purpose of His existence, we live a life of worries. Many people, including myself, worry about almost everything! But why worry, when God can cast away all your troubles. We just need to believe in Him. But first, Remember the height from which you have fallen! (Revelations 2:5) and repent, so that we may accept Him as our savior. Only then can we leave everything in His Holy hands, for He will dry every tear from our eyes. The verse above, clearly shows that when we trust, we live in peace forever! Praise the Lord!

Father's Love Letter

My Child…

You may not know me, but I know everything about you ~ Psalm 139:1
I know when you sit down and when you rise up ~ Psalm 139:2
I am familiar with all your ways ~ Psalm 139:3
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered ~ Matthew 10:29-31
For you were made in my image ~ Genesis 1:27
In me you live and move and have your being ~ Acts 17:28
For you are my offspring ~ Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived ~ Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation ~ Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book ~ Psalm 139:15-16
I determined the exact time of your birth and where you should live ~ Acts 17:26
You are fearfully and wonderfully made ~ Psalm 139:14
I knit you together in your mother’s womb ~ Psalm 139:13
And brought you forth on the day you were born ~ Psalm 71:6
I have been misrepresented by those who don’t know me ~ John 8:41-44
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love ~ 1 John 4:16
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you ~ 1 John 3:1
Simply because you are my child and I am your father ~ 1 John 3:1
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could ~ Matthew 7:11
For I am the perfect father ~ Matthew 5:48
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand ~ James 1:17
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs ~ Matthew 6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope ~ Jeremiah 29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting love ~ Jeremiah 31:3
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore ~ Psalm 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing ~ Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop doing good to you ~ Jeremiah 32:40
For you are my treasured possession ~ Exodus 19:5
I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul ~ Jeremiah 32:41
And I want to show you great and marvelous things ~ Jeremiah 33:3
If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me ~ Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart ~ Psalm 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires ~ Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine ~ Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager ~ 2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles ~ 2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you ~ Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart ~ Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes ~ Revelation 21:3-4
And I’ll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth ~ Revelation 21:3-4
I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus ~ John 17:23
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed ~ John 17:26
He is the exact representation of my being ~ Hebrews 1:3
He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you ~ Romans 8:31
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins ~ 2 Corinthians 5:18-19
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled ~ 2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you ~ 1 John 4:10
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love ~ Romans 8:31-32
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me ~ 1 John 2:23
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again ~ Romans 8:38-39
Come home and I’ll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen ~ Luke 15:7
I have always been Father, and will always be Father ~ Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is, Will you be my child? ~ John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you ~ Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad, Almighty God

I really want to thank God for providing for me all these years, for carrying me on His back through all my troubles, and helping me to see the light at the end of the tunnel. He gave everyone the greatest gift of all - His LOVE, by dying on the cross so that we may be cleansed. We have to be grateful for all that He has done for us.

I have decided to follow Jesus, no turning back, no turning back!

I am the truth, the light and the way. No one goes to the Father except through me (John 14:6)

choir concert and ice-cream

choir concert at RJC with clique 2006: seet, joiz, ching & me (camwhoring as usual =P):













Dun u find this pic a bit disturbing...hmm



Free cone at Ben's and Jerry's with best pals charmaine and jieying! (queued for like 25-30 mins, but worth the wait for Chocolate fudge brownie...)

Love God as He loves YOU

Testify to Love (Avalon - Maze of Grace)

All the colors of the rainbow
All the voices of the wind
Every dream that reaches out
That reaches out to find where love begins
Every word of every story
Every star in every sky
Every corner of creation lives to testify

For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences when words are not enough
With every breath I take
I will give thanks to god above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love

From the mountains to the valleys
From the rivers to the sea
Every hand that reaches out
Every hand that reaches out to offer peace
Every simple act of mercy
Every step to kingdom come
All the hope in every heart will speak what love has done

The Mayonnaise Jar and 2 Cups of Coffee Inspirational story

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2cups of coffee.
A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He
then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous "yes."
The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under thetable and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.
"Now," said the professor as the laughter subsided, "I want youto recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things---God, your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions---and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would stillbefull.
The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car.
The sand is everything else---the small stuff. "If you put thesand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time andenergy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you.
"Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.Play with your children. Spend time with your parents. Visit withgrandparents. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the houseand fix the disposal.Take care of the golf balls first---the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand ."One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked.It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

Easter Sunday - Give thanks to Him for He died for our sins

Psalm 55:22
"Friends are God's way of taking care of us."
This was written by a Metro Denver Hospice Physician:

I just had one of the most amazing experiences of my life, and wanted to share it with my family and dearest friends. I was driving home from a meeting this evening about 5, stuck in traffic on Colorado Blvd., and the car started to choke and splutter and die - I barely managed to coast, cursing, into a gas station, glad only that I would not be blocking traffic and would have a somewhat warm spot to wait for the tow truck. It wouldn't even turn over. Before I could make the call, I saw a woman walking out of the "quickie mart" building, and it looked like she slipped on some ice and fell into a Gas pump, so I got out to see if she was okay.

When I got there, it looked more like she had been overcome by sobs than that she had fallen; she was a young woman who looked really haggard with dark circles under her eyes. She dropped something as I helped her up, and I picked it up to give it to her. It was a nickel. At that moment, everything came into focus for me: the crying woman, the ancient Suburban crammed full of stuff with 3 kids in the back (1 in a car seat), and the gas pump reading $4.95. I asked her if she was okay and if she needed help, and she just kept saying " don't want my kids to see me crying," so we stood on the other side of the pump from her car. She said she was driving to California and that things were very hard for her right now. So I asked, "And you were praying?" That made her back away from me a little, but I assured her I was not a crazy person and said, "He heard you, and He sent me."

I took out my card and swiped it through the card reader on the pump so she could fill up her car completely, and while it was fueling, walked to the next door McDonald's and bought 2 big bags of food, some gift certificates for more, and a big cup of coffee. She gave the food to the kids in the Car, who attacked it like wolves, and we stood by the pump eating fries and talking a little. She told me her name, and that she lived in Kansas City . Her boyfriend left 2 months ago and she had not been able to make ends meet. She knew she wouldn't have money to pay rent Jan 1, and finally in desperation had finally called her parents, with whom she had not spoken in about 5 years. They lived in California and said she could come live with them and try to get on her feet there. So she packed up everything she owned in the car. She told the kids they were going to California for Christmas, but not that they were going to live there.

I gave her my gloves, a little hug and said a quick prayer with her for safety on the road. As I was walking over to my car, she said, "So, are you like an angel or something?" This definitely made me cry. I said, "Sweetie, at this time of year angels are really busy, so sometimes God uses regular people." It was so incredible to be a part of someone else's miracle. And of course, you guessed it, when I got in my car it started right away and got me home with no problem. I'll put it in the shop tomorrow to check, but I suspect the mechanic won't find anything wrong.

Sometimes the angels fly close enough to you that you can hear the flutter of their wings... Psalms 55:22 "Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and He shall sustain thee. He shall never suffer the righteous to be moved." This prayer is powerful and prayer is one of the best gifts we receive. There is no cost but a lot of rewards.

When Satan is knocking at your door, simply say, "Jesus, could You please get that for me?"

Try again, never stop believing

Life is full of ups and downs, like a rollercoaster. Never would i imagine myself even getting through the interview round for council. The surprising yet elating news seemed so eons ago. Now...now i cant wait to forget the memories of council campaigning. Truth be told, it was a wonderful and enriching experience for me. The planning late into the night (with the emotional outbreak), the buying of materials, the painting of banners, the putting up of posters, giving out stickers are all etched into my memory, and pictures in reminescence of the stressful, yet fulfilling times. But experience is just the name we give our mistakes. I have let myself down countless times, including this time. I cannot stand the feeling. The wave of emotions that rush through me as i stared at the board with countless name, none mine. I tried to keep it in, but it just erupted like a volcano, the outpouring of tears instead of lava. Concerned faces and people trying to console me. I really thanks you all, but no one will really understand how i feel deep down inside. Even when i dun wanna think about it, it all comes back to me, together with that rush of emotions, that really wanna just make me breakdown and cry. Learning to forgive somehow seems easier than learning to forget. I am really trying hard to. Sooner or later, it will just be a part of my life where i stumbled and fell, but for now, it is a large barrier that i need to overcome, need to forget, need to let go. Congrats to all those who made, whose efforts have paid off. My efforts never made it through. I know God has other plans for me, which is the reason why He decided not to fulfil this dream and hope of mine, and I will live with it, cos He is the mightiest, and will lift me up when my spirits are down. Trust in him, I shall. And He will light the path and guide the rest of the way for me, so I will not stumble and fall yet again.

Happy Birthday Yun Zhi

Went to vivo yesterday to celebrate my friend's birthday. Vivo again! It was kinda difficult trying to meet up with her cos her friends organized a 'surprise' birthday celebration for her, where teachers were invited. And they even booked a table for 2o at swensons, but ended up the whole big group only ate 3 plates of fries. All these were related to me by the very embarrassed birthday girl. So in the end, she managed to get out and join us for dinner at Secret Recipe. Ate bbq chicken...yum. Then after that we went to haagen diaz for chocolate and cream ice-cream. Aww...so much indulgences. Gonna lose my fitness soon =P. Ended up talking throughout the whole dinner, sharing all the stories and jokes about JC life. Her sister came along also, and she's trying to appeal into RJC next year from NUS high. Hope she can get in! Holiday life is so hectic la, with all the homework given =(. But I can cope, cos Im proded... =P

OG pics

Taken during o2 by our OGLs (award-winning jump shown below)

I need my knees back

I have been taking my knees for granted for a very long time already, i guess. =( Anyway, after floorball training on wed, my right knee started wobbling and could not support my weight. (panics...) Plus, there was second orientation the next day, so i was dragging my right leg throughout the whole day. bleh! BUT, 2ndO was fun. The external activity picture-taking part was the highlight. And, YES, our og won sth again - for the best jump. YAY, bbO3 u rock =) Walking to take the pictures was a tiring chore for both my legs. By the end of the day, the right calf and ankle started to hurt as well cos all the weight of my upper half were going to that area plus the other functioning leg. Spammed counter-pain in an attempt to numb the wierd sensation in my knees and stank up the whole place. Im glad its healing quite ok now, although i cannot put a lot of weight on it yet. The doc said sprained knee, 2 weeks no physical activity and knee guard. Oh well, im not gonna miss training, but i still missed class outing =( Thanks for all the concern ppl, im fine now or should be SOON!

Birthday =)

A big thank you goes out to everyone who made the 28th of Feb such a wonderful and memorable day. Thanks for all the wishes, the presents, the cards, the celebrations and all the pictures and camwhoring! =) Luv ya all dearies!

Vivocity

Prep for Mud's Bday at Vivo =)

RJC uniform

Just went to get my uniform today (2 blouses, 3 skirts). Already bought 2 blouses from a different place. The material of the other blouses is thicker and whiter. Anyway, the skirt is ultra long. I had to fold it 5 times before it seemed the right length.

Year of the Pig

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR OF THE PIG! oink

True Colours

By: Eva Cassidy

You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness there inside you
Makes you feel so small

But I see your true colours
Shining throughI see your true colours
That's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours
True colours are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

Show me a smile then,
And don't be unhappy, can't remember when
I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I see your true colours
Shining throughI see your true colours
That's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours
True colours are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

OhhhhI can't remember
When I last saw you laugh
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I see your true colours
Shining throughI see your true colours
That's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours
True colours are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

I see your
True colours shining through
See your true colours
That's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours
Your true colours are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

JC Life

WOW! I havent blogged for a whole month. Probably still adjusting to the hectic schedule of JC life. Havent even blogged about orientation.
Orientation seemed eons ago, but i totallly agree with our OGLs. It was and will still continue to be the best part of our entire life in JC. It feels like only yesterday that we began learning our school song, our batch song, and our batch dance based on the theme L'audeamus, where most of us embarrassed ourselved learning the dance moves. I can still vividly remember all the games we played - the war games, station games and external activies. SVCK rocks the house! We came in first from the location we were assigned to go. Anyway, at least my og is still bonded. We meet every morning at the l'odge and quite a few people turn up. Hope this can last til the end of the year =)
Now on to my class! SO3J rocks as well! =) At the start, our class had a gender divide. the boys would sit at one table, while the girls would sit at another. But now, i am glad that our class is really bonded. We met up 2x so far in school to play sports. Its called the 3J sports day every saturday haha. I have gotten used to the lecture-tutorial system although it may be quite tiring for us to climb to the 7th floor for lessons almost everyday. (the lifts are useless, so few ppl can fit into 1 lift).
CCA! am now in floorball. Still havent gotten to play much yet. Our first actual training starts on mon and i will be getting my stick on wed. (it costs me a hefty $128 bucks). Hope that cca trainings will be fun, and the team be bonded as well.

Happy 2007

All the best for the 364 days ahead! =)